American singer and songwriter, Billie Eilish, made known that her addiction to pornography which began at the age of 11 gave her nightmares and messed her up when she started dating. The singer is now angry at herself for thinking it was acceptable to watch porn.

While speaking on the Howard Stern Show on Sirius XM radio, Eilish declared that pornography is a disgrace and that watching it helped her to feel as if she was cool and ‘one of the guys.’ She says she is devastated by the exposure.

“I think it really destroyed my brain and I feel incredibly devastated that I was exposed to so much porn,” the singer noted. She added that she suffered from nightmares because some of the content she watched was violent and abusive.

Eilish said that during the first few times of intercourse, she found it hard to say no to things that weren’t good because she thought that was what she was supposed to be attracted to.

The singer became the youngest person in history to win all four of the top Grammy Awards in the same year. At the age of 18, she took home the statuettes for new artiste, album, record, and song of the year in 2020.